It feels like a haze that stops you from thinking clearly. The obstruction is so suffocating it seems almost tangible. It takes more effort than it should to hold your tongue and it is oh so tempting to just unload and damn the consequences. Yet silence never equates to inaction and you just hope that your self control is not misunderstood. Then those damning thoughts start persuading you that you're right, that you're entitled, that it's not worth the effort. But some better part of you speaks up, and it gets louder and louder until you fish out your bible and desperately flick to page xii, 'WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS ABOUT...' guidance. But these verses you knew. Page xi, 'WHERE TO FIND HELP WHEN YOU ARE...' angry? anxious? upset?
But surely this is not how you read the word of God. And you close the book, you shut your eyes, and you pray. And then suddenly you think, Wow, you are the all powerful Lord of the universe, yet can I be tempted and troubled by anything less trivial than this?
So you slap yourself, give your head a shake, and remember the two simple commandments upon which depend all the law and the prophets. And for a short time, you are thinking clearly again.
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